A quick update – since there really isn’t much to tell. This is pretty damn sad, actually! After spending $1,000 on a dating SERVICE, and about a month later: still not ONE date! I could have done this on Match! I hate that I had the gut feeling that I shouldn’t have done this. Do you ever have that feeling? You KNOW this is probably not the best idea for you, but you do it anyway? Then what happens? I ALWAYS KICK MYSELF LATER! ALWAYS! I just thought this time was because this time I was dealing in an area that I’m not comfortable with. So I just thought I was pushing myself out of my comfort zone. Which I still was. And it is still not over. I know this.
Anyway, so here is the latest: I spoke to guy, we’ll call him “43” almost 3 weeks ago now. We ended things with ME suggesting that we meet up for a drink when he gets back into town. (He travels a lot for work.) He agreed, and said that should be “some time next week.” I have LITERALLY not heard a word from him since! And it can’t be that he is nervous because since I made the suggestion, he already has a “yes.” I gave in and shot him a text on Friday afternoon, and so far NOTHING! (It is now Sunday afternoon.) I’ll be interested to see how the MM group handles situations such as these. Please! I canNOT be the first person this has happened to!
Bottom line: This was supposed to be fun and easy, and it has been anything but. I have paid a f**k-ton of money for a huge PAIN-IN-MY-ASS experience!! I can’t help but to wonder, though, if I’m not that 2% case. You know? Like this is one of those cases that RARELY happens, but, of course, it is happening to me. And I know what you are thinking, because I would be thinking it to… “with that attitude of course it is happening to you!” Seriously, though, I have tried to put so much positivity into the universe with all of this, but it’s getting pretty old!
On a positive note: The laundry is almost done, new grass has been planted, and had some fun this weekend with a girlfriend celebrating her birthday! All things considered, a pretty damn good weekend. (And BEAUTIFUL!)